Jake:   can you tell them you’re in mourning
your walk buddy was M.I.A. today
Lani:   Hahahha
How can I take anything that you say serious
If you bust out with comments like that
Jake:   well i missed our walks
and messaging you

Jake:   i have a confession.. i missed you the past few days
Lani:   Really
Jake:   yes rRReally 😀

one thing is for sure.. you make me smile.. actually you make me excited..
there’s a part of me that I didn’t think was still there..
and I guess somehow.. you made me feel it

you also made going to work more enjoyable
the hardest part of work is getting to work..
now it’s one of the best part

Jake:     Lani
Lani:     yes Jake
Jake:    I think you’re looking too far
it’s right in front of you

cuteness dies
specially with crow’s feet
and freckles

she was standing in the kitchen with the phone in her ear
she never told me what happened
I was about up to her hip
I remember looking up
at first she was holding back her tears
and then.. she started to cry
and it made me cry
for no reason

Lani:    Since you like me more than you should don’t you think that you should maybe stop talking to me so much
Jake:    it’s your call
your wish is my command
Lani:    Why is it my call?
Jake:    I am flexible
Lani:    How is that my decision to make and not yours
Jake:    my decision is.. “i like what I like”

Jake:   i miss you Lani
shhh
that was a typo
dang auto correct
Lani:   Was it
Jake:   hahahah
Lani:   So I should ignore that
Jake:   see you’re lucky
i left it open
i gave you an out
Lani:   Why give me an out?
Was it a mistake or did you really meant it?
Jake:   i was joking about the typo
i don’t want to make you uncomfortable.. last thing i want to do
Lani:   Not at all
It’s nice to know someone misses me

Jake:   i’m happy to get up and drive to work
Lani:   Why is that?
Jake:   funny!
Lani:   2hr lunches
Jake:   no Lani
i get to walk YOU in
and spend a little time with you
Lani:   You are too sweet
Jake:   you’re like eye candy to me
Lani:   Am I really?
Jake:   i keep on taking little glances.. trying not to look too long
Lani:   I don’t think I will ever understand that
I am not pretty
Jake:   yeah there’s no way you will understand it because it’s from my perspective not yours

Jake:   when you look at me.. do you think i might be into you too much?
Lani:   The way you look at me it’s different than anyone before
I think that’s why I avoid looking at you
Jake:   i’m sorry
Lani:   No it’s ok I am not used to it
It’s weird
It’s all about me not being comfortable in my own skin

Jake:   so i woke up maybe two times last night
both times.. i wondered if you were able to sleep
Lani:   Nope
I was awake till about 2am
I just didn’t want to bother you
Trust me I thought about texting you but I told my myself no, he is busy
Jake:   hmm..
busy thinking about what you were doing
Lani:   Hmmm
Crazy
Jake:   it’s okay.. at least we were doing the same thing.. sort of.. i was busy thinking of a girl and you were busy thinking of a boy and of sleeping.. or not sleeping

Jake:    got a question.. do you have pets?
Lani:    No pets why
Jake:    i’m in dan’s car and he had a dog
got me all itchy
😕
Lani:    Lmao
Jake:    just making sure we are beyond compatible
i refuse to fall for a girl with cats

Jake:   did you know you give gifts every morning? every morning when i wake up i get a little message that let’s me know i’m important or special to someone. thank you for making my mornings awesome!
Lani:   You are welcome! You are important and special…. I am glad I make your mornings awesome!

Lani:   Does your keyboard miss me?
Jake:   screw my keyboard.. i miss you..
Lani:   Lmao
Remember you told me that
That your keyboard missed me
I miss you too!

Lani:   Can you imagine yourself working with me
Same dept
Jake:   lots of lunches together
breaks
i’m sure you would grow tired of me
Lani:   Nope I think that you would get tired of me
Jake:   no way

Lani:   Good morning, Jake!
Last night I couldn’t sleep until one because I couldn’t remember if I thanked you for lunch.
Thank you for lunch!
Jake:   Good morning Lani!
Thank you for allowing me to take you.
I think I like you too much.
Lani:   Another reason why I couldn’t sleep was because I didn’t get to talk to you. Is that a bad thing.
Jake:   i kept on waking up
maybe we need a good night too?

you know what’s different about our relationship? we’re able to connect without being physical. i think most of the time, people like each other and get physical right away.. and bam are forced into a relationship.

Lani:   I forgot that my kcups are still at home
Jake:   looks like someone has to go down stairs
Lani:   I refuse to go downstairs
Lol
Jake:   i heard it’s delicious down there
Lani:   Stop
I will not give in to my addiction
Jake:   ahh two addictions.. you will give in to one of them
Lani:   2?
What’s the other?
Jake:   oblivious much?

Lani: Hay Jake
Jake: what’s happening?
Lani: Nothing
I miss you
Jake: i might be missing you more
Lani: Hmmm
Jake: i know i miss you more

Jake: no mothers here that are remotely easy on the eyes
Lani: Be nice
Jake: maybe you ruined me for everyone else
hahaha
Lani: Hahaha
A little dramatic

Jake: i woke up all confused.. my phone says 4:15 but it’s still sunny.. and i forgot to say good night to you..
can you believe for a few second
i thought it was morning?
and i suddenly got really sad
Lani: Why
Jake: i was like.. man i didn’t say good night to Lani 😔
Lani: Aww that’s sweet

Jake: we are looking at books
their school is doing a book fair
to raise money for the school
okay they got their books
time to check out
Lani: Buy me one
Lol
Jake: okay!
this is what i got for you
Lani: Did you really?
Jake: yes
Lani: That’s awesome
Jake: lots of hearts

Lani:   Why do you have to tempt me like that
Cruel
Jake:   because it’s my responsibility to tempt you
Lani:   Really

Jake:   i like pretty much everything you give me.. i’m a fan for Lani
like people are fans of JT
justin timberlake
Lani:   Thanks
You always make me smile
Jake:   unconditionally
Lani:   Forever?
Jake:   hmm. as humanly possible
Lani:   I know
Jake:   it has always been about your happiness
whenever you get tired of me.. when you can’t handle what i give.. when you realize you can’t return the same energy i show..

Jake:   it’s crazy you thought of a girl you never met
Lani:   Who me lol
Jake:   yes you
you said this song makes you think of cali girl
Lani:   Yes
I don’t know why
Jake:   it’s like you’re a part of me
so crazy
Lani:   Crazy crazy
Jake:   have you felt like this for anyone in such a short time
maybe it hasn’t been that short?
Lani:   Not like this
I have made good friends with other people and feel like I have known them for years but our connection is different

Jake:   did you know you made me sad today
Lani:   I am sorry if I did
Was it when I was kind of mad
Jake:   yes
it was when you kept on saying no
i felt your were angry
Lani:   Am sorry
Jake:   i should have went walking with you
i see how i was at fault
Lani:   It’s who I am, I think I do that when I feel I am getting closer to someone
No you guys had a hard decision to make me or ice cream and I understand why you chose something delicious over me lol
I am really sorry, the last thing I want is to make you sad
Jake:   i read (your messages) wrong
i didn’t know you asked me to walk
but now it makes sense
Lani:   So I walked longer to see you but nothing lol
Jake:   i’m so bad
i’m so sorry
all i was doing was thinking of you
i even shared my ice cream
Lani:   Why are you sorry, you have nothing to be sorry about
I will talk to you later. Dinner time!
I will be missing you!
Jake:   i miss you

Jake:   i think i more than miss you
Lani:   More than miss me
Jake:   yes
Lani:   How is that possible?
Jake:   it’s possible
Lani:   how do you know you more than miss me
Jake:   because i think about you all the time
all the time
i check my phone for a good night and good morning
to be close to you i listen to music that makes me think of you
Lani:   You know that’s not good right
Jake:   i look out the window and day dream
maybe i need a hobby to focus my attention
Lani:   I just don’t want you or myself to get hurt
Jake:   i know
i don’t want you to get hurt
Lani:   I know
Jake:   did you feel hurt yesterday when we didn’t show up to walk with you?
Lani:   Not hurt but I was looking forward to our walk
Jake:   you should have been forward about that request with me
Lani:   I know it’s my fault
Jake:   like how you are point plank with me
asking me who i like

Lani:   Question
Jake:   your question?
Lani:   I forgot
Lol
Jake:   did you really?
or are you afraid of the answer?
Lani:   No
Ok let me ask
Maybe
I should just wait for the 6 month probation to be over
Jake:   please ask
maybe it can better prepare you for when the probation period comes
Lani:   How do you know when liking someone is becoming more than that?
Jake:   easy
great example
we both like nick
we can hang out with him, walk with him, talk with him, eat with him, share some stories with him
but would we like to share more
that’s when you know you more than like someone
like i don’t miss nick
i don’t think about him when i exercise
when i listen to music
when i watch a movie
when i fall a sleep
when i wake up
Lani:   If you did then you would be in trouble
Jake:   hahahah
then i would be dan
Lani:   Yup
Should we keep distance from each other
Jake:   it’s your call
Lani:   No Jake don’t make me decide
Jake:   whatever you want Lani
Lani:   It’s what we both want
Jake:   if your happiness can be achieved with less time spent with me
then i will do that without pushing back
Lani:   Not just me
You have some saying too you know
Am happy when we talk, walk, chat
Jake:   are you happy when i hug you?
or hold your hand ever so slightly
Lani:   Yes

Lani:   Oh lord I am so confused
Jake:   are you more confused today then a month ago?
Lani:   Yes
Jake:   okay question you probably can’t answer
when did you think.. “oh man this might be trouble”
do you know when that happened?
Lani:   The first time you hugged me
I felt something that I shouldn’t have
Jake:   that’s why that last hug was a one arm thing
because you were afraid to give and receiving more..
Lani:   Yes very afraid
Jake:   you were afraid of the bond
Lani:   Yes

Jake:   harder question
can we be friends without falling
Lani:   I don’t know
Can we?
Jake:   have you had a friend that you shared everything with but you weren’t romantically attracted to
Lani:   I am trying really hard to keep my feelings buried
Yes I have
Jake:   you’re doing a good job
what happened to that friend?
Lani:   We are still friends
Jake:   is he married?
what kept you two from dating?
Lani:   No
He has a girlfriend
There was no connection like that
Is was just a friendship
Jake:   i’m sure what’s happening here is my fault.. i shared too much of my stories and feelings to a pretty girl that likes romance
Lani:   It’s not just your stories
Jake:   and how i approach life
Lani:   It’s who you are
You are an amazing person
I miss you and not like i miss a friend
Jake:   me too

Jake:   we are basically like planes circling above the airports.. can’t land to experience what the city below us holds..
Lani:   Very true
One day we will land right
At least I hope

Lani:   What do you see in your future?
Jake:   the truth?
more of the same
i don’t want to hurt anyone
i don’t mind getting hurt
i sometimes enjoy it
Lani:   We are so alike
Jake:   because i know at one point it means i felt something
and something happened

i never want to let you go

Jake:   i like it when you hit me
Lani:   Do you really? Why?
Jake:   1) when you punch it doesn’t hurt
2) it feels like a love punch
3) you’re touching me
Lani:   😂
So I should punch you more often
Jake:   YES!
and i should try to provoke you more often

Lani:   I will try to text you later but know that I will be missing you!
Jake:   i miss you a lot Lani
Lani:   You mean you miss Claudia a lot hahaha
I miss you a lot too!

Jake:   are you dressed up?
Lani:   Am too cheap remember lol
Am myself lol
Jake:   my favorite character/costume
Lani:   Really
I miss you!
Jake:   i want to hold you ms oblivious
Lani:   😊