I love being myself
but now
I have never felt this way
I want to tear off my own skin

when this happened for one day
it was barely bearable
but this time
it’s almost nearly impossible
drowning for a day wasn’t easy
drowning for over half a month is insane
I’m not sure how much longer I can endure

I love being with you
I love knowing you’re there
I love everything about you

saw you sitting in your car
walked over and saw you were on the phone
turned around and walked away
was going to walk you in
or take you away for the day

you said I can’t help you..
“no one can..”
but you know that’s not true.
I’m probably the only person that can make the pain go away.
You feel this way because of how much I mean to you.
This is the result of extreme happiness taken away..
I’ll always be here when you’re ready to talk..

every time I think about how I sound to you..
and your response of “you sound just perfect”
I cry..

I hate everyday that goes by
that I don’t get to hear your voice